Good Afternoon 👍🏽

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Sometimes I often find that most people see me as someone nice, but also easy to get over on. I guess it's my calm demeanor, or my chill voice... but what people don't realize is that I've literally been through HELL.

I may look mean but....
I'm actually really sensitive 🥺 
I've been taken.
I've been lost.
I've been HOPELESS.
HOMELESS.
It felt like there was NO WAY OUT

People I thought were friends turned out to be undercover haters🥸 

No matter how badly people treated me.
Somehow I still managed to still be kind
After so long of giving...
I went back into my shell....
I'm hidden in a cloud ☁️ 
In the rains I dwell...
Until I regain my energy...

To go back out
&&
Give it my all again. 



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