You Think You Know....

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I'm often misunderstood....
A lot of people don't bother to try to understand me. It takes time, it takes patience, it takes love... true love. 
This is why I pray 
I know I look crazy
I know I look overly emotional 
I know I look pretty 
Like I don't have no issues 
But, I do.
I fall into sin
I read The Word
I meditate on it
I put what I read into practice 
None of that matters though...
With time I'VE LEARNED 
You just gotta 
Put on your game face 
And keep it pushin 
You can't show them you're hurting 
You can't show anyone 
You can't lose it
Not in front of other people 
You gotta keep it to yourself 
Cry alone 
Grind alone 
Most oftentimes 
I've found myself 
And CAN HEAR GOD 
LOUDEST 
when I'm by myself...
It's okay
to be
by yourself 
Learn how to be more comfortable
Alone
You came in alone 
You're leaving alone 
Learn how to be cool with 
Being alone 😔 

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